Thursday, November 24, 2016

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Today is Thanksgiving, and I'm digging down deep inside me for feelings of gratefulness. As always, I'm grateful for my kids, but the behavior that they're exhibiting today leaves much to be desired. I'm longing for the days when they'll be grown and out of the house, just coming back to visit for holidays and such.

Bryan's been off his meds for several days and just went back on them, so he's kind of out of it/off the wall right now. Loud noises are really affecting him, and he's getting really pissy at the drop of a hat. It's like a mini-manic phase for him. Let's just hope it stays mini and that his meds get him back on track in no time.

Tea and I are headed back out to NIH on Sunday. I've been praying for good weather. I have money set aside in case we get stranded out there (we can get a hotel room so we won't have to stay at the airport), but so far, things are looking good. I was kind of a dummy when I scheduled the flights, flying out on a holiday weekend. The airport is going to be such a mess when we fly out and when we land. I have to remember to take my anti-anxiety meds with me.

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

It was a busy week. Today was voting day. I was actually wishy-washy on who I was going to vote for until about 5 minutes before I went into the polls. I kept telling the kids that a vote for the third party is not a wasted vote, and then I started to doubt my own words. In the end, I voted my conscious, and it was right for me.

Today is Matthew's birthday, as well. We had a decent day. He got to share cupcakes with his friends and teachers at school, and we gave him a balance bike as a gift. I also gave him his kid's tablet that I had put aside for Christmas. Matthew even joined me when I sang Happy Birthday to him. It was great.

I went to my sister's house over the weekend. It was nice to be with family, although our personalities are so very different. I'm not really sure what to say about the weekend. At some points it felt tense and off. At some points it felt like I was almost floating outside of the situation. And then there were some times that I just wanted to completely sleep through. Sometimes I could see how completely dysfunctional my family is. But it was also nice. It was fun to have us together and joke around and play games. I don't know. We're supposed to do a big trip out east this spring, and I just can't imagine doing it. It was weird for just the weekend. Almost 2 weeks might do me in.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Do you ever feel like an outside player in your own life? I feel a little disconnected right now, like I'm making all the moves, whether they be the right ones or not, but I'm truly not on the playing field. I'm wondering if it's because I've had a buttload of sugar these past few days, and that's just making me feel all out of whack. Whatever it is, I don't like it.

I got our schedule today for our trip out to Maryland. That Tuesday is going to be interesting. You can probably read that as boring. I kind of hope that they'll have to finish up some of the scanning on Tuesday; otherwise, we're just going to have to be at the airport for a long time, and I hate that. Maybe, if we are at the airport for awhile, we'll get pedicures or something. Yup, airport pedicures. How sanitary does that sound?

Matthew had fun trick-or-treating yesterday. He wouldn't wear the Elmo costume that I bought him. He just wore his Marshall pajamas. We went to the NR businesses, and he said trick-or-treat at almost every one, and almost remembered to say thank you without prompting. And now he's hopped up on sugar as well, so I had to take the majority of candy and hide it on the top shelf of the pantry.

We're working on getting Matthew evaluated for OT at school The U of M wants him to receive OT both in and out of school. I'm still waiting for the report from the U of M. I need to make a copy for the school, but I definitely want to read it through first. It'll help me set up speech and therapy services and OT for Matthew outside of school. I'm wondering if Courage Kenny in Stillwater does that kind of stuff.