Friday, November 13, 2015

You know, I try so damn hard, and it just doesn't seem to be enough some days. I can see why people drink and do drugs. I would love to drink away my problems or get high until I just don't care anymore. Instead I eat. Yeah, that's done well for me. Grrr. Anyway, right now is a time where I feel like eating everything away because I'm afraid Nick's going to yell at me about money. He works so damn hard to earn what I just "give" away to those bastards who are constantly after us. Damn paying the bills. And I'm trying to do what he wants me to do by ignoring other bills to get the mortgage paid, but it doesn't seem to be working out very well for me. I can't ignore needing milk and cereal and bread. I don't know how we're supposed to afford Christmas this year. I'm feeling scared and anxious right now.