Sunday, December 27, 2015

I missed my nephew's wedding. We didn't go up because of the weather, but a huge reason, one that I didn't share with anybody, was that I'm too fat to fit into any of my nice clothes, so I didn't have anything to wear. At first I couldn't afford to buy anything new, and when I could, it was too late to buy anything. I was trying on clothes on Thursday, and everything was so tight it either showed off all my lumps or wouldn't fit over my hips to get it on all the way. I was so embarrassed that I've let myself get this fat. I can only hope that my new meds will help me lose weight like the doctor hopes it will. My psychiatric nurse also increased my dose of Topamax, hoping that it'll work in conjunction with the Metformin to help me lose weight even better. Just, please, I hope it happens soon. I want to be able to wear my clothes again. I don't want to miss family functions because I'm so fat.