I've been working hard on keeping myself pulled together. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. I'm afraid I keep trying to overeat the elephant.
I planned out the calendar for the rest of 2016. The bill calendar, I should say. I have the repeating bills written in with their amounts, if I know them. For the ones that I don't know the amounts, I just have the dates that they're due, or the dates that we pay on them, if we're just paying as much as we can when we can. It makes something that's overwhelming not so bad. The majority of the medical bills are paid off, but we're going to be gaining one because I haven't been paying Bryan's therapy co-pays each week. That sucks. Plus, money's going quickly with the amount that I'm paying for all these damn prescriptions. I worry about what Bryan's going to do when he's out on his own and has to pay for his own medical stuff.
Graduation isn't that far away. Bryan's still getting an F in English, but has pulled up his Chemistry grade to a C+. I'm really hoping that he can pull up that English grade. His party is all planned. I keep putting off ironing his graduation gown. I'm just nervous. I'm trying to have faith in him, but even today, he tried to get out of going to school. I don't know how to get him through these last 9 days of school.
Bryan did get a job. He'll be working at my sister's laundromat. This is good, because I'm hoping she'll have patience in case he screws up. Not saying that he's going to, but you never know. He's still pretty immature and has a lot to learn, because we never really allowed him to grow up. Which, mind you, is totally my fault. I've been so busy holding his hand and trying to protect him from his dad that he never had to grow up. And now I'm trying to send him out into the real world? Fat chance.
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