Tea is out in DC right now. She flew out yesterday morning. She just texted and let me know that there's a big storm out there right now and that there's flash flood warnings. I really wish I was out there with her; I know she's nervous. She had so much anxiety about going out there without me. Originally I was supposed to go out there; my best friend and I were going to be chaperons because both of our kids were going out there. But I couldn't afford the trip. It's disappointing, and I really hate doing the responsible thing sometimes.
Things are more than a little rough financially here. I keep saying, "In a couple of months it will get easier..." I've been saying that since about October, and so far it really hasn't. I keep praying about it, asking for guidance, but I need to learn to let go before I can be guided. And I just can't seem to let go of the control that I so insist on having.
I've released 18 pounds since the beginning of February. Slowly but surely, I'm determined to get rid of this weight. I've veered from my food plan slightly, and I need to get back on it totally. For today I'm abstinent, and that's all that I can do.
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