Friday, January 27, 2017

I feel out of control and not put together. I was terribly sick yesterday, and I feel raw and my emotions feel like they're out there to be plucked at will. I had some stomach bug and just slept all day. It was horrible. Being that vulnerable physically left me more than vulnerable emotionally. Now I have appointments that I'm supposed to make it to today, and I feel like I can barely move. I just want to scream at the unfairness of life, making me get up. I'm not sure how to adult today. I have no patience for Matthew, and he's the one that I need the most patience with. This little black cat drives me up the wall with the way he keeps jumping up on everything that he should be staying off of. I just don't know how to keep it all together.