The depression has somewhat lifted, although there's still a feeling of irritability and meanness around me that I don't like. I get pissed off easily and for no reason. Anybody can be the victim of my wrath, and now with the kids back to school, I have to be especially careful that I'm keeping my anger in check because Matthew is the only one home with me. I don't want to sit here and be yelling at him all the time when he's only being a 2-year-old and doing what he's made to do. (Even if he doesn't turn 2 until November, he's entering that stage now.)
I know one of the reasons I'm irritable and sad is because we're putting Reeses to sleep tonight. Bryan has had that cat for 13 years now. I'm so sad to think that he's not going to be around the house anymore. However, I won't be sad that I won't be picking up poop, pee, and disinfecting Matthew's toys anymore. I've been doing that for over two years now, and enough is enough. Reeses is the last of his litter (as far as I know), and he's had a good life.
We're all going to miss you, buddy.
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