I'm feeling a little numb right now. Kind of like, "Hey, husband, how about a divorce, and you can keep the children, and I'll just run off and become a hermit? That sound good?" I'm just so spent. Tuesdays Holly takes Matthew so that I can go see my therapist and run my other errands, but I never get any time to myself. I just want some time to myself. I don't know what I'd do with it, though.
Here's the positives I'll look forward to:
On Thursday, I'm going to the Hudson Mom's Group get together at the park. It's their beginning of the year thing, and I'm hoping to meet some new moms and hopefully have Matthew be able to play with some new kids. I'm hoping that the group won't be cliquish, and that I'll be able to connect with at least a few people so that I won't feel so lonely all the time.
Next Friday, I'm taking Matthew to Romp and Stomp at the Centre. It's a place for walkers through age 8 to get together and play in bouncy houses and other play equipment. Again, I'm hoping to meet other parents and hoping that Matthew will get to play with other kids.
Maybe these are high hopes, but at least I'm going out and trying.
On the therapist side of things, I asked about the DBT group. She's going to make a referral and I should be hearing from the coordinator of the group for an intake. I really have no idea what the group is about, other than trying to regulate your emotions. But the logistics of it is what is up in the air for me. When does it meet, for how long, etc? I'm still hesitant about it, but I think it would be best for me, especially considering how I'm feeling about my home life right now.
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