Thursday, March 31, 2016

I talked with Bryan yesterday and asked him if he was failing his classes because he didn't want to grow up, or if he really didn't understand the material. I asked him to look deep inside of himself for the answer. I told him that he was an adult age now, and the next steps were going to come regardless of what he does. I emailed his special ed teacher to ask what happens if he does fail those classes; does he get to walk across the stage with his class and make them up in summer school, or does he have to repeat senior year? That will make a big difference on the expectations that we put on Bryan for this summer. Hopefully he just won't fail those classes. That would be the ideal outcome. And maybe I need to have faith in my son that he'll pull out of this and get his shit together.

I've been feeling better. I've actually been getting some stuff done around the house. Yesterday I got the dining room table cleaned off so we could actually eat there as a family. I also got laundry started. The hard part is putting the laundry away. I have two baskets of Nick's laundry that I haven't put away yet, and his laundry already needs to be done again. It's an endless cycle! I've currently got Bryan's laundry in the washer and dryer. He usually averages about 3 loads every 10 days or so. I don't mind doing his, because he'll put his own stuff away, and I just hang up his shirts. He told me when he moves out he's just going to have a bunch of crumpled up shirts because he's never going to fold them or hang them up. I told him we'd buy him 5 laundry baskets for his graduation so that he can keep them all in check. Sometimes I wonder how he's going to keep up on things like laundry and feeding himself.

I'm working the 6th step in OA, and I want to get a Plan of Eating written down today. I feel like if I write it down I'll be more likely to stick to it. Maybe if I email it to my sponsor, I'll be more likely to stick to it, too. I don't know why I've been dragging my feet.

I wanted to order one of my Shutterfly books while it was 50% off, but today is the last day and we just don't have the money. Unless I play beat the bank, which is never a good idea.