I get so tired of trying. I get so tired of living. I've never felt like I'm a part of this world, and sometimes, it just gets so hard to go on. I feel like I'm being unfair to my children by giving them a mental mother who can't be relied upon to give them a stable life. I feel like I'm being unfair to my husband by not being the woman he deserves, an equal partner.
But then I remember that I have a 100% success rate of getting through times like these. I've made it through worse, and I'll continue to get through the bad. I'll make it through this anxiety and depression. I'll come out stronger. And life will seem boring again because there will be no chaos in my life, and I won't know what to do with myself. When life is boring, I cry because there's nothing going on. When life is chaotic, I cry because I can't handle all the stress and anxiety. I am a drama queen.
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